Today I was in Kohl's trying on khaki pants and as I was looking in the mirror I had a thought that I hadn't had before. It was this thought.
"I am really unhappy with the way my body looks right now. I want to change it. I think I need to lose weight."
I mean, for awhile now I've been on this "I should get healthier" thing, but like, I've really never felt like I was too heavy. Or too jiggly. I'm a jiggly person, and I have been for awhile. I think it's okay for women to jiggle. It's sexy to have a little bit of softness. Something to bounce, you know? But today when I was looking in the mirror in Kohl's, I was like, "Hmmm. That's unattractive."
So I went to Meijer and bought lots of veggies and fruit and a disgusting salmon thing that was gross. I did the whole cucumber peel and cut up thing. I've already packed my lunch for tomorrow. Then I went and worked out for an hour. So, I'm unhappy, but I feel good about the fact that I can make good choices. Better choices. I can do it.
Here it goes.
